Thursday, July 9, 2009

Timing.........

This is another no photo Friday.

I have the feeling that this is going to be a rambling of thoughts.
completely informal.

please bare with me.
i thank you in advance.

this has been a challenging week.
those of you who read my blog know that last friday i wrote about my brother, david.
sad but true.

this week started with my 19 year old daughter telling me that her friend from high school was on life support from a drug overdose.
not just any friend, but a young man she spent a HUGE chunk of her weekends with during 3 years of high school.
part of her crowd.

now if you knew where i lived you would also be shocked.
the town where we live is billy graham"s college....wheaton college.
there is a verrrry strong under current of christianity in this community.
quite funny because my kids were raised jewish.
that is for a whole other post.....

it's a bit like mayberry. i am not from a town like this. i was raised in a very diversified community.
everyone was not white. there where people who practiced all different faiths.
it was actually a town of great acceptance of ALL people.
i miss that.

somewhere along the lines i changed.
i softened.
i was hoping that this couldn't happen.
especially after my brother, david's, death.
i wanted an escape.
i wanted anything other than THAT!

i wanted to raise my kids in mayberry.
it's sooo sad but drugs and alcohol even exist in mayberry.

this had brought back so, so many memories.
i feel like i have been in a constant state of prayer.
right before i did this post i actually tried to reason with God.
imagine that.
thank goodness He gets me.
that's all i have to say about that.

i just ask that you all pray, pray like you have never prayed for this young man, Nick Anderson.
pray for his mother, father, sister, friends, aunts, uncles, grandmas, grandpas, treatment friends and just all the people he has touched in his very short life.

i am not one to do a post like this.
i realize that.

this just hits SOOOO close to home for me.
i wish life was like in mayberry.
i now realize there is no mayberry.

let's all hold our kids extra close this weekend.
let's just be grateful for the blessing we have today.

thank you for letting my get this out.
i have been so very consumed with this heavy sadness.
i can't help but empathize with this sweet family.
i can't help but want to make sure people are thinking about them.

i want that families legacy to be soooo much more than their family member died from a disease called addiction.

i want Nick to be remember for living life to the fullest. no matter what that means.
there has to be more meaning in all this. i just know there is!!!

i thank you again for accepting me and loving me as the total package.
i am so blessed everyday because of you!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO


13 comments:

mimi charmante said...

What a week my friend. Of course I will be thinking of you and sending you all of my good thoughts and prayers. I can only imagine the old "stuff" that this brings back. As a parent, this is one of those things we pray we never have to experience, isn't it? I will be thinking of Nick and his family~
xo

Katie said...

I'm so sorry! Of course Nick's family and yours will be in my thoughts and prayers. Nothing is more tragic than a life cut too short, I can't even begin to imagine that kind of pain. I hope your daughter is doing okay, or as well as can be expected.

Zita - Mlle Magpie said...

Amy, how awful. I really feel for you having such a difficult week, so full of such sad and upsetting feelings. You hang in there - I will definitely hold you in my thoughts and prayers.

Sheila R said...

You all are in my prayers. May God continue to listen, comfort, give stregth and guidness to your family and Nick's. You truly are a beautiful person... THE WHOLE PACKAGE!

Sandi said...

Prayers definitely going up for Nick and his family. So heartbreakingly sad!
Blessings~

The Kramer Angle said...

I believe in the power of prayer and will be praying for everyone.

southerninspiration said...

I understand what you mean. Sometimes it happens to the least likely. I will indeed say a prayer for Nick....I have a friend whose son is suffering from addiction,too. It does drive us to prayer because only God's spirit is stronger than the drive with an addiction. So, so powerful.
Take care.

Suzanne

littlebyrd said...

You got it - lots of prayers and good thoughts for Nick and his family. I can imagine how this would make your heart feel heavy this week. I hope you find some peaceful time this weekend to relax and take care of yourself.

Backyard Candle Co. said...

Thank you for sharing this with all of us and being so open and honest. I will pray for them all, and for you as well Amy. What a tragedy, for such a young person to leave this earth so soon. You are sooooo right, there is no Mayberry anymore.:(

Nikki said...

I'll be praying for Nick and his family as well as all of those that are close to him. I hope that your daughter is doing okay.

Tara said...

Oh Amy,I am so sorry to hear this, my thoughts and prayers are with you and Nick's family. Thank you for being so honest, I appreciate it. My brother overdosed 2 or 3 times, I can't remember now, and to this day he is still not "right", however he is here, so with that, I pray that more then anything when this baby heals from his overdose, that he gets the help he needs...real help, addiction is a really scary monster, it can hold onto you with aggresive force, I pray he finds the will to keep fighting~ I hope this weekend finds some soothing for your soul...and some celebrating in between with your daughter!

Christina said...

Amy, I will pray for your daughter's friend!

Lisa said...

Oh I'm so sorry! I got your tweet on the way home from work so I now I know the whole story! I'm so sorry he didn't make it. I will pray for all of you as this will be so hard on you all.
Hugs and prayers, Lisa