Timing.........

This is another no photo Friday.

I have the feeling that this is going to be a rambling of thoughts.
completely informal.

please bare with me.
i thank you in advance.

this has been a challenging week.
those of you who read my blog know that last friday i wrote about my brother, david.
sad but true.

this week started with my 19 year old daughter telling me that her friend from high school was on life support from a drug overdose.
not just any friend, but a young man she spent a HUGE chunk of her weekends with during 3 years of high school.
part of her crowd.

now if you knew where i lived you would also be shocked.
the town where we live is billy graham"s college....wheaton college.
there is a verrrry strong under current of christianity in this community.
quite funny because my kids were raised jewish.
that is for a whole other post.....

it's a bit like mayberry. i am not from a town like this. i was raised in a very diversified community.
everyone was not white. there where people who practiced all different faiths.
it was actually a town of great acceptance of ALL people.
i miss that.

somewhere along the lines i changed.
i softened.
i was hoping that this couldn't happen.
especially after my brother, david's, death.
i wanted an escape.
i wanted anything other than THAT!

i wanted to raise my kids in mayberry.
it's sooo sad but drugs and alcohol even exist in mayberry.

this had brought back so, so many memories.
i feel like i have been in a constant state of prayer.
right before i did this post i actually tried to reason with God.
imagine that.
thank goodness He gets me.
that's all i have to say about that.

i just ask that you all pray, pray like you have never prayed for this young man, Nick Anderson.
pray for his mother, father, sister, friends, aunts, uncles, grandmas, grandpas, treatment friends and just all the people he has touched in his very short life.

i am not one to do a post like this.
i realize that.

this just hits SOOOO close to home for me.
i wish life was like in mayberry.
i now realize there is no mayberry.

let's all hold our kids extra close this weekend.
let's just be grateful for the blessing we have today.

thank you for letting my get this out.
i have been so very consumed with this heavy sadness.
i can't help but empathize with this sweet family.
i can't help but want to make sure people are thinking about them.

i want that families legacy to be soooo much more than their family member died from a disease called addiction.

i want Nick to be remember for living life to the fullest. no matter what that means.
there has to be more meaning in all this. i just know there is!!!

i thank you again for accepting me and loving me as the total package.
i am so blessed everyday because of you!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO